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Suzette Jordan: My Name is Not “The Park Street #Rape Victim!”

July 7, 2013

In 2011 Suzette Jordan was brutally gang raped on Park Street in Calcutta. To read about her case click here. Because the law in India forbids the revelation of a victim’s name and face, and entails a fine and 2 years of imprisonment, the media until now had blurred her face and called her the “Park Street Rape Victim.” Recently Suzette decided to reveal her name and identity.  She is probably one of only a handful of Indian women to do so.  Below she explains why.

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My name is Suzette Jordan and I don’t want to be known any longer as the victim of Calcutta’s Park Street rape.

After the incident, [the police] laughed at me. They didn’t take me seriously.  [At the medical examination] I felt like a piece of meat.  It drove me crazy, wondering what the hell they [the rapists] did to me while I was unconscious. I was in so much pain. I couldn’t move my body.  I became a complete nervous wreck.   It frightened me. I started going into a shell. I couldn’t even get up to go the loo.  My father had to lift me off the bed to take me to the bathroom. I am 37 years old. That was so embarrassing.  

Neighbours made it difficult for me to live in that area [where I was living earlier.]  I was made to feel like I was the one responsible for the assault. Because I had come out of the nightclub [with a man], I was made to feel that I invited rape.  When my daughters went to school in the morning, some people would look at them in weird ways and pass comments.  I’ve been a single mom for 11 years. Instead of saluting [me] for being a both mother and father, they cast aspersions on [me].  Oh, she’s a single mom. Her husband left her. She might have been a prostitute. [Government officials] called me a prostitute and [they] don’t even know me.  And [in doing so they also] endanger the life of an actual prostitute.  Are [they] trying to say her [a prostitute’s] word does not matter and anyone can do anything to her?

 I had to move out from my residence and move elsewhere in the city.  Had it not been for my two daughters, I would have committed suicide.

[Of all the jobs I’ve applied for] Never ever till today has anyone gotten back to me.  Am I really that worthless because I was at a nightclub [when I was raped]? If nightclubs are so bad then shut them down.  I started taking so many anti-depressants, sleeping tablets. I had nightmares. I would wake up screaming. I was a mess. I was hurting myself. Had it not been for my parents and my babies, I definitely would have been dead.

[Now, working for a helpline for victims of sexual and domestic violence] I feel I am healing, sharing the pain [of other victims].  [But] I keep hearing about so many rape stories and feel suffocated by the complete silence of the victims, their families and society.

Recently, I met the family of a rape victim in Calcutta. I thought: ‘How long are we going to live with shame of having been raped?’

[That’s why] I am trying. I am forcing myself to get over the fear. I can’t stop living because I am a rape victim.  I was raped. I was brutally raped. But I am alive and I want to fight.  I need to fight as I am, not behind a mask, not behind a screen, not behind a blurred image.

[Upon my decision to reveal my name and face] a lawyer has said I am ruining the sanctity of the courtroom.  But when the courtroom doors open, the entire families of the accused are outside. They are clicking me on their phones. What about my sanctity?

I love discos. I love dancing but haven’t been back since then. I want to go out to a party. I want to dress up the way I like. But I am so scared to do that. [As for justice] I have nothing against those people [the politicians, police and civil society who have hounded her.]  [But] can make it up to me by giving me justice. Not just for me but for every other woman like me in the state.

I am tired of hiding my real identity. I am tired of this society’s rules and regulations. I am tired of being made to feel ashamed. I am tired of feeling scared because I have been raped. Enough is enough!

[So] Don’t distort my voice, don’t blur my picture. My name is Suzette Jordan and I don’t want to be known any longer as the victim of Calcutta’s Park Street rape.

 

 

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33 Comments leave one →
  1. July 7, 2013 2:45 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story Suzette , my heart goes out to you and your Children . It is NOT your fault you were raped !!!!! The laws in your Country are long overdue to change for Women and Girls , please be assured that here in the UK you have many supporters xxx

  2. Roopchand permalink
    July 8, 2013 1:07 am

    Suzette if you get to read this be sure that everyone is somebody to the living God, and God knows who you are, never despair when you have Jesus Christ in your heart, maybe men who do not respect or honor women or men or even honor God’s laws can take away something from us, albeit woman or man or child, do not live in fear or even ignore what you have gone through but let make you stronger as a human for God and to do the right thing and fight the good fight with all your strength. If you would read 1 Timothy in the New Testament, read it with todays application in mind and see youself as a leader and not someone who was left behind. God bless you and be strong sister.

    • elaine renton permalink
      July 8, 2013 9:30 pm

      I’m sorry Roopchand but if there was a ‘god’ ANYWHERE would Suzette have actually had to endure this EVIL ???????????? There is and NEVER has been a ‘god’ ffs ……….. It is ENTIRELY down to wot our Parents install in us from birth !!!!!!!!!!! Suzette suffered soooooooooo much at the hands of man’kind’ nothing else !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  3. July 8, 2013 2:43 am

    Suzette,
    Brava! You are a good woman, a good mother, and admirably courageous. I’m sick at all you went through . . . but there is your brave fearless face.
    peace, equanimity,
    mickey morgan

  4. Joan Williams permalink
    July 9, 2013 2:04 am

    Suzette,
    I am so proud of you taking this stand and fighting back. The world needs more women like to you to stand up and say “that’s enough!!” Don’t let these people make you sad or get you down, because you have not committed the crime. Be strong and courageous. If everybody stood up to injustice the world would be a different place. You go girl!!

  5. Shubhra permalink
    July 9, 2013 11:00 am

    Respect! I do not have your guts or strength but I admire and respect you. Your action is a step towards a better society so thank you!

  6. Indrani permalink
    July 9, 2013 4:58 pm

    Suzette, I am so glad I can now put a lovely face and a name to such a courageous survivor of this horrific and continuing assault on you both by the rapists as well as the police. Thank you for ‘coming out’ . Your brave act should now act as a catalyst for all of us to make an effort to change the way rape victims are perceived by the rest of the world, not as pathetic victims (or worse, as those who invited trouble on themselves) but as survivors of a horrific crime. This is one of those typical patriarchial laws where in the name of protecting the woman’s identity to hide her from a perceived feeling of ‘shame’, they literally erase that identity so that her real feeling of rage is silenced, and the rest of the world can distance themselves from this ‘nobody’, this ‘people not like us who get raped’. I can see that you have great strength. Your family must surely be so proud of you. Trust yourself, love yourself, and keep the faith. I care for you as do many others who now know you.

  7. Faye permalink
    July 14, 2013 10:13 am

    We will change the world for you – or I should say, WITH you. This happens in the United States,too. I don’t know how, but WE WILL CHANGE IT. And your voice is the beginning.

  8. Annie permalink
    August 18, 2013 8:39 pm

    RESPECT sister thankyou for using your voice and standing up as the strong proud woman you are to help fellow sisters. I am Australian and I am very proud of you !!

    • Annie permalink
      August 18, 2013 8:41 pm

      PS And what an amazing role model you are for your daughters – LOve x

  9. August 19, 2013 12:17 pm

    Dear Suzette, I could understand your pain and sorrows of being a victim, of having a fight with evils of society, facing courtrooms… It’s very tough to fight the case in courts not only because the courts have a burden of long awaited cases but probably more of those who are lawyer’s and shelter-providers within our society. You need not to change your living habits, neither you need to afraid of those comment makers within society. You need to be cautious and keeping your strength and dedication towards this fight unshaken. We all are with you. Ms Rita is doing a lot of work for the sake of girls and women’s welfare upto international level. She is representing our cases on various platforms in India and Out of India. I would too devote my services to her fully after a year when I would be able to do something for 50 million on a definite basis, i could not disclose that also due to my courtroom sanctity. We are proud of you for taking care of your daughters on all fronts like a mother and father. It’s very tough in a society of us to live with dignity (if you are having daughters). The parents of daughters are always remains worrying about their dignified survival in this society of more evils than civilized citizens… keep your morale high and maintaining your overall strength for fight. Our Indian court’s provide justice definitely but only after a vigilant and long and regular fight!

  10. Susan permalink
    August 20, 2013 5:05 am

    You are a very courageous woman Suzette! Yes, you are a victim, a victim of ignorant men that have no respect for women. When it comes to the issue of rape, even though I am in Canada, we as women, sisters, mothers and daughters must stand strong and stand together. You have nothing to be ashamed of. The shame is on the part of the men that physically, emotionally, psychologically and sexually took advantage of you simply because they are savage. You are right by reaching out and helping other women rather than hurting yourself. Stand tall and proud for yourself and your daughters. It is a pleasure meeting you Suzette. Stay strong and safe!

    Susan

  11. August 21, 2013 7:08 pm

    Dear “Fight for a cause”..from your picture and writing we understand that you are an Indian-male…so, world!..see…There are Indian MALES who respect and protect and love the FEMALES of their country!!….This makes our fight for RESPECT and PROTECTON of Indian females stronger ..Thank you to the Indian MALES in India and around the world !
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    Help FEMALES…Protect and fight your government to protect them from the animals who rape females….!!..

  12. Louisa Tjørnholt permalink
    August 23, 2013 4:48 pm

    Dear Suzette.
    What you do, is SO strong and powerfull. Nothing is more powerfull than the truth, so just keep on being true to yourself and those around you. Do not ever let anyone make you believe theír lies. You are a strong, beautifull, caring person, and to help others is the best way to heal ourselves, so keep on the good work. You have all my respect! Loving thoughts and good wishes to you and your family. Louisa

  13. socialawareness2013 permalink
    August 25, 2013 6:03 am

    Reblogged this on Social Awareness.

  14. August 25, 2013 11:00 pm

    You are a brave and amazing person. Wishing you all the very best!

  15. Santosh Nath. permalink
    August 26, 2013 1:51 am

    Proud of you Suzette that you decided to come forth and declare that you were the one who was wronged. It is the wrong doers and their ilk who should feel guilty. The wronged one should do what Suzan did, expose the crime, and, and the criminal(s), if possible, by giving names. The punishment should be a deterrent punishment.

  16. sofialeitaomonjardino permalink
    August 31, 2013 4:59 pm

    It’ always a shock to read about one more rape situation…I congratulate you for your determination. And I wish you all the strength in the world to keep on fighting against old rules, old unfair laws…keep your faith way up your head and way down your heart…a new society is emerging…with new ways…new education…new people. Thanks to you and your courageous example. You have 2 lucky daughters.
    Sofia

  17. March 2, 2014 12:42 pm

    You rock Suzette!. wish you all the best for all your future endeavors. and i wish those rapists rot and die in pain.

  18. Megha permalink
    March 2, 2014 8:57 pm

    Lov u suzette…..proud of u……salute u for ur bravery….

  19. March 2, 2014 11:43 pm

    Your efforts are not in vain Suzette. Someone somewhere is being affected because of your actions. You are not just Suzette Jordan….you are The One and Only Amazing Suzette Jordan.

  20. Syed permalink
    March 9, 2014 5:54 pm

    That is a brave face you have put up. God Bless you and your family. You will get your justice one day. Happy Women’s day for now.

  21. Prachi Usha Kathale permalink
    March 13, 2015 2:16 pm

    RIP Suzette Jordan… 13th March 2015 at 3 am you left this world… i feel good as atleast now you are in safe hands… and you will be treated as an angel… you were, are and always be Suzette Jordan… Respect… Hats Off !!!

  22. Sara permalink
    March 15, 2015 10:12 pm

    This admirable lady passed away 2 days back. But justice has not yet been served.
    RIP dear lady. May God Bless & protect her children, and send a fitting punishment to her tormentors.

    • March 31, 2015 12:53 pm

      Indeed Sara, the best way we can remember Suzette is to make sure that all the perpetrators are punished and justice is served. As a campaign, we will continue to push Suzette’s case for sure.

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